Blowin'

We are having what meteorologists are calling a "wind storm." It started late yesterday afternoon, along with heavy rain and gusting winds up to 60 mph.


The timing was particularly inconvenient for me.

Yesterday, my housemate and best friend Kay had toe surgery. The surgery itself took 40 minutes and she enjoyed being in la-la land with the meds she was given to knock her out for the procedure (she was given the option to watch the surgery if she wished. She didn't wish.) When someone has toe surgery and it's raining like a bitch outside, it's a real pain in the ass (or pain in the toe) to get that someone in and out of the car and buildings without getting the newly operated on and wrapped foot wet.

All that was accomplished, a good night's sleep was also accomplished for Kay and Nurse Nancy dutifully made sure the pain killers came at the prescribed time.

However, we had made plans to go to our favorite crab house, Sambo's, today as this is the last day they are open for the crab season. Sambo's serves crabs caught from the Delaware River and tributaries. With the wind and associated tidal disturbances, I'm not holding out much hope there will be crabs delivered to Sambo's this morning. It has been really cold too and when that happens, the little ugly crabs bury themselves in the sand at the bottom of the river thus becoming impossible to catch since they ain't swimming.

The conclusion to this sad tale is that come 10:00 this morning we are going to call and see if they are able to serve crabs and, if so, in spite of the wind and rain, we will get into the car and head down to the canal for the last crab meal of the season at Sambo's. They only serve local crabs hence their seasonal status.



Little things can mean a lot! Yum!!

Why are we even debating this?

No matter how hard I try to understand, I don't.

I do not understand why there is a debate over whether or not gay couples have the right to marry.

Of course they should. Why the hell not?

In this country which supposedly allows for all to pursue happiness (as long as it does not harm or prevent others from doing the same) homosexuals have not been allowed to enjoy the same rights as heterosexuals when it comes to being in a committed relationship. Traditionally, companies that provide benefits recognize a committed relationship as being a marriage. You can get married in a civil or religious service - either way, it is recognized as a commitment.

It's far less simple for gay couples. It's far less simple because they do not have any avenue in which to pursue a legalized commitment, the same kind of commitment straights have.

Why that is, I still do not understand.

How the hell would the fact that gay couples can marry harm me, my children, my family, my cats, my gerbils . . . you get the idea. How? As a straight person, I cannot fathom how this would adversely affect my ability to pursue happiness and enjoy freedom.

If you belong to a religious institution that preludes the marrying of gay couples, then much work has to be done inside to, first of all, point out where in the Bible there is any mention of Jesus condemning homosexual. Let me know when you don't find it. These organizations need to battle it out. However, there is absolutely no reason whatsoever a civil service cannot be created and performed for gay couples and the legal recognition of that union, in turn, provide that couple with the same benefits we straights enjoy in marriage.

Why not a civil service?

Afterall, we are a country who separates church and state, aren't we? Religious zealots are not allowed to impose their views into our laws, are they?

Right? That couldn't possibly happen, right?

Why Things Stay Static for Me

Because I rarely ever finish anything that I start, that's why, at least not personal things and sometimes not even professional things whereby I am the only person involved.

Let me explain. If you hire me to produce something for you - an event, a show or any kind of production - I will have everything planned right down to the inth degree and have back up plans in place too. Everything will be done on time, it will be done correctly and if I have people working with me on the project, I am always in communication with them and know what's going on. Nothing is late, nothing is overlooked.

When it comes to planning for myself it's as if the wire just flew out of the circuit altogether and waves aimlessly about; electric current shoots out of it but nothing comes of the thing.

This has been the bane of my existence all of my life. It is so frustrating. It actually gives me a headache to move forward with a tedious personal task, sometimes to the point where my stomach becomes upset. I have been learning tricks to overcome this obstacle and it has started to pay off but still there is much to do. I will look at something that I need to do and it is as if I am staring at it and nothing conceptual enters through my eyes into my brain. I have no idea where to begin: I have no idea how to start and continue the process.

I can do it for other people, but I cannot do it for me.

How weird is that? I am reading books on organizing tips and other tools for ADHD people so that I can complete tedious tasks and be more organized so as not to lose opportunities because I am so personally disorganized.

Why can I be together in work situation but not personally? This is an answer I still seek.