Because I rarely ever finish anything that I start, that's why, at least not personal things and sometimes not even professional things whereby I am the only person involved.
Let me explain. If you hire me to produce something for you - an event, a show or any kind of production - I will have everything planned right down to the inth degree and have back up plans in place too. Everything will be done on time, it will be done correctly and if I have people working with me on the project, I am always in communication with them and know what's going on. Nothing is late, nothing is overlooked.
When it comes to planning for myself it's as if the wire just flew out of the circuit altogether and waves aimlessly about; electric current shoots out of it but nothing comes of the thing.
This has been the bane of my existence all of my life. It is so frustrating. It actually gives me a headache to move forward with a tedious personal task, sometimes to the point where my stomach becomes upset. I have been learning tricks to overcome this obstacle and it has started to pay off but still there is much to do. I will look at something that I need to do and it is as if I am staring at it and nothing conceptual enters through my eyes into my brain. I have no idea where to begin: I have no idea how to start and continue the process.
I can do it for other people, but I cannot do it for me.
How weird is that? I am reading books on organizing tips and other tools for ADHD people so that I can complete tedious tasks and be more organized so as not to lose opportunities because I am so personally disorganized.
Why can I be together in work situation but not personally? This is an answer I still seek.